In the beginning...

In the beginning .. I was selfish and irresponsible and thought playing house would be fun. Boy did I have a distorted idea of what life and motherhood was all about. I did take care of my daughter tho at age 17. My mom was not taking care of her for me so I quickly learned just how hard being a young mother. I would get up with her every night take her to school with me. Life quickly changed from being about me to being all about my baby. Hard lesson learned when your young and the world revolves around you lol. Never once did I think about my wreckless behavior nor did I think my actions would directly affect my childs fragile psyche.life has been kicking my ass for a long time but this year has been the most challenging. for me. I have been tested on every level possible. My strength as a person and parent has been put to it's ultimate test. My flaws as a parent were exposed completely. I was shown my mistakes from numerous points of view...but showing me allowed me to open up to suggestions on better ways to approach a difficult child.